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"Under the Lake"

I'm not ready for a full-on reaction post other than to say that I really liked it! But I found something on the internet about the episode, and I just have to share it:

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SJA is in Yuletide!!!!!!!!!!!

Sarah Jane Adventures wasn't a fandom for last year's Yuletide, and I'm not sure why, but I'd gotten it into my head that it had grown too big. Okay, I'm partially sure that it has something to do with the old AO3 cut-off numbers, which SJA was on the verge of reaching two years ago, but with the newer "1000 fics on AO3 plus ff.net" rule, it was eligible this year. And, probably eligible last year. Anyway, I checked the counts and confirmed that it was eligible, and nominated it . . . but I have to confess that part of me was still waiting to hear back that I was wrong, and it wasn't eligible after all.


I'm definitely going to request it, but what should I request? More Gita!fic? I got some great fics two years ago, but then again, can the world ever have too much Gita!fic?


Returning villain idea

I'm watching "Brain of Morbius" right now (yay BBC America for showing Fourth Doctor episodes!), and I'm getting reminded of what a fantastic villain Solon is. Wouldn't it be great to have him back on the show?

And okay, I know he's dead, but that's never bothered the Doctor Who writing team before. I've honestly lost track of how many times the Master has died and come back. And besides, does anyone really believe that Solon lived on Karn all that time without managing to get ahold of some of the Elixir of Life?


Fourth Doctor coming to BBC America!

BBC America is going to start showing Fourth Doctor episodes! I swear, I am almost as excited about this as I am about new Doctor Who tomorrow. They claim they'll be showing "the Fourth Doctor's best episodes," but WHICH ONES? They don't say! I am on pins and needles. What will they start off with? Ooh, could it be Horns of Nimon?*

They don't even say how long they're going to keep this going for, but they do have a nifty promotional trailer. Not sure if it will play outside of the US, but in case it does, here's the link: http://www.bbcamerica.com/doctor-who/videos/have-breakfast-with-baker/

*I suspect it won't be Horns of Nimon.

Drabble: Blur the Lines

I wrote something!

Title: Blur the Lines
Rating: All ages
Characters: The Doctor
Word count: 100
Disclaimer: This is a work of fan fiction, offered freely. Doctor Who and all characters belong to the BBC.
Summary: He's not human.
A/N: Written for who_contest . Prompt: Blur

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Best quotes from the Fourth Doctor

Just came across this video on youtube -- it's a compilation of the 40 best quotes from the Fourth Doctor. It's nicely edited, and a fun retrospective: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DSCPumpL0Yg


It's been really interesting to read the press about Comic-Con. First of all, it's really interesting to just see how much press there is about it, and how easy it is to find. Comic-Con is so mainstream now, there are stories about cosplay showing up in my regular news feed.

I love the idea of Comic-Con, but I'm not sure if I would actually love being there. I just read an article on what it's like to sleep outside overnight in order to get into a "Hall H" panel the next day. That just seems ridiculous to me. What's the point of paying a lot of money to get into the convention -- not to mention all the other hurdles you have to jump to even get access to Comic-Con tickets -- only to not actually get to see the convention unless you're also willing to sleep outside in a line all night? (In case you're interested, the article is here: http://www.theverge.com/2015/7/12/8937951/comic-con-hall-h-line-horrors)

Now don't get me wrong; some of what goes on in "Hall H" sounds pretty cool. For example, I heard that those who got into the Star Wars panel got to go see a surprise Star Wars concert immediately afterwards, with free light sabers and the San Diego Symphony. I would have loved that. But even if I had known about the concert ahead of time, I wouldn't have slept overnight in line for it. If I go to a convention, I want to experience the convention. And to me, experiencing the convention is not about spending all of my time in a line.

It just seems that more and more, these really big conventions are about exclusivity: "I got to be one of these people!" And that's an atmosphere that I really dislike. It makes me wonder if I do in fact want to go to Comic-Con. In the meantime, since I'm not one of "the chosen," I'll make do with videos of concert performances of Star Wars music, like this one, look out for local pops concerts where I can enjoy the music live, and celebrate that I can still get a good fandom experience without sleeping out overnight on a sidewalk.

Thoughts about suicide, and reaching out

Don't worry, I'm not suicidal. But, I did just come back from a memorial for a friend who committed suicide. And so I've been thinking about him, and about the mental state that leads to committing suicide, and I feel I have to write about it.

My friend planned his suicide. He left messages -- lots of different messages, for lots of different people -- and one of the things he said in his messages was that he knew his suicide would cause pain, and that the people he loved, and the people whom he knew loved him, had kept him alive, and that if it weren't for that connection, he would have committed suicide long ago. But now it was too much, now he wanted to end his suffering, and while he knew help was available, he was deliberately choosing not to seek it out.

I didn't know this friend very well. In truth, I am probably stretching things by using the word "friend"; he was more of an acquaintance, and a mutual friend of other friends, and I had had no idea that he even struggled with depression, let alone to this extent. That was one of the things he said in his suicide notes, too -- that he had become good at mimicking happiness because he didn't want to inject his unhappiness into interactions with others.

And I think about the times when I've been depressed in my life, and I realize I've done the same. There have been times when I was severely, deeply depressed, and no one knew. When you're in that state, reaching out is the very last thing you want to do, and even if you know intellectually that it might help you, your emotions tell you that it won't -- that it will only cause unhappiness to others, and stress to yourself at a time when you absolutely cannot bear one more iota of emotional pain -- and so you curl in, and instead you just endure. If you're lucky, then, like in my case, the depression eventually lifts, and you come out again. And you don't talk about it, at least not in any real, deep sense. You don't talk about it because it's uncomfortable to talk about, and worrying to friends and family, and even stigmatizing. But mostly you don't talk about it because there isn't really anything to talk about. There's no story to tell. There's just a feeling, something that encompassed you for a time and then went away -- or, as in the case of my friend, didn't go away, until he couldn't bear it any longer and made it go away using the only method he believed would work.

And so, in memory of my friend, I just want to say -- reach out. If you're depressed, and have nothing to say, then just say that you're feeling depressed, and have nothing else to say. If you're not depressed, reach out to the people around you. Check in with them, and find out how things are going -- try to find out how things are really going, moving beyond the shallow shorthand of "everything's fine." Try to reach beyond the mimicry.

Try to create a world where help is not only available to those who seek it, but already there to those who lack the capacity to seek it. Reach out, one person at a time.


Hugo award controversy

I'm surprised that I haven't seen more about what's currently happening with the Hugo awards on LJ, but then again, I'm not exactly "hooked in." Anyway, I thought I'd share this article for the benefit of those who might be as clueless as myself. The whole thing raises some important issues, not only for the Hugos but for fandom: